Being an introvert is often confused with being shy or being “anti-social”. We are considered to be home bodies and hermits. Those that aren’t introverted don’t understand what it’s like. So I’d like to tell you what it’s like for me, being an introvert. I’ll share a few things from when I was growing up to and how it affects me now as a parent.
I have decided to challenge myself over the next two months. This month I will be doing the blog-tember challenge. This challenge is created by Baily Jean. It is where you blog every day in September. She has created blog topics for every day, and that makes this so much easier. Next month I will be doing Vlogtober. That is where you vlog or post a video every day in October.
I’m very excited for these next two months.
The first topic is “Introduce yourself however you like! Pics, vlog, collage, your choice :)”.
Now I already have an introduction on my blog. That Is more focused on why I started this blog. I want this one to be more about what goes on inside my head, as an introvert. This is a topic I’ve been thinking about for some time.
To start off, what is an introvert? The definition is a reserved or shy person. But that’s a simple explanation. Being an introvert is a little more than that. Also just because someone is an introvert doesn’t mean they’re shy. For me, the most important characteristic about introversion has to do with energy.
For an introvert being around people is physically and mentally draining. It’s like running a marathon, and the only way to get energy back is by being alone. For some, this could take days. Don’t get confused. This does not mean that introverts don’t like being around people. I know most like being around people or at least I do. I just don’t like feeling like I’ve run a marathon every day. I need time to recharge.
Don’t get confused. This does not mean that introverts don’t like being around people. I know most like being around people or at least I do. I just don’t like feeling like I’ve run a marathon every day. I need time to recharge.
Now for what you’ve all been waiting for what it’s been like for me as an introvert.
As I child I didn’t know I was an introvert. I was just told that I was shy. That I needed to be more outgoing. That I needed to come out of my shell. That if I did certain things it would help me be more outgoing. So, I hated myself. I hated that I was shy and that I didn’t have courage. I hated that no matter what I did I was never more outgoing.
In high school I did cheerleading. Of course, I was told that you couldn’t be shy and be a cheerleader, but I was. I did it for three years. The only reason I didn’t do it for four years is that I moved. Doing cheerleading didn’t make me any more outgoing.
The summer after I finished high school I did a beauty pageant. That’s something outgoing people do right? Well, it didn’t help me any. I’m still not outgoing, and I couldn’t understand why.
Since nothing was working, I just decided to accept it. I’m shy, and that’s who I am! I will not let it hold me back! But is that who I really am?
Flash forward a few years and I discovered the Briggs-Myers personality test. It is the most accurate personality test I have ever taken. I found out I was an INFP. Right now the only thing that is important from that is the “I”. It stands for Introvert. After that I became obsessed (just like an INFP).
For the first time, I really understood what was “wrong” with me. And the answer was nothing. There’s nothing wrong with me. I am just the kind of person that does better on my own.
It explained so many things. Why I felt tired after being around people. Why I became irritable after constantly being around people and never getting a break. How I loved being around people, still felt the need to avoid it as much as I could. How I could get up in front of a group of people and give a speech as well as anyone else. How I could be a cheerleader or in a pageant.
You have no idea how good it felt to know finally that this is who I am. Now I could find ways that worked to help move forward with my life. But there was one thing that still concerned me when it came to being an introvert. Being a parent.
Being a parent has its challenges on its own. Being a parent and an introvert posed a few more problems. Having someone one around me all day every day and never getting any alone time was horrifying. I wouldn’t even be able to use the bathroom on my own.
My biggest fear and it still is, is that I’ll get frustrated and take it out on my kids. That’ll I’ll just get tired of not having any space and resent my kids.
So far I’ve spent almost 11 months as a parent, and it hasn’t happened yet. I’m ok with my son’s company every single day. I love his company more than anyone else.
I’m proud of myself. I didn’t think I would have been able to make it this far without once wishing he would just go away or without accidently taking my frustration out on him.
Now there are still times where I need to take a minute to myself, but I could never imagine leaving him for a day or for more than a few hours at a time. In fact, the longest we have been apart was when he had his surgery in January.
As hard as it is to be an introvert, I’m proud. I wouldn’t change it. I’ve learned to love this part of me. Every day I’m working with it, and I’m learning new ways of coping.
This has been a bit of a different kind of introduction, but I hope that it has given y’all insight on what it’s like to be an introvert or at least what’s it’s been like for me.
Tell me, are you an introvert or an extrovert? How does it effect your life?